Bhakta
Ben
I thank you Prabhupada for your patience, care and understanding. Nobody
knows better what I am looking for and need in life than you. I am so full of
doubt, self-hatred, obsession and lust, that it is very difficult and painful
for me to listen to any advice offered.My life is rushing before my eyesand
I make so many mistakes and let so many people down that the very continuation
of my life is almost unbearable. If it weren't for your compassion and tolerant
guidance into the essence of life (service to Krishna) I would still be suffering
in the darkness without any relief. My spiritual life has begun now by your
fathomless mercy and has taken many interesting and disturbing turns. My only
prayer is that you keep asking Krishna to get me to read your books again and
again so I can always feel a part of the wonderful and glorious movement ISKCON.
In my heart of hearts I am inspired by your life's mission to become a
pure devotee. Most would say i8t is impossible but you say the opposite, and that
is why I will always follow you especially. My obeisances to you for ever
and to your disciples and grand disciples who are the living representatives of
your mercy and love. Hare Krishna. Your struggling servant, Bhakta
Ben
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